In my library there are 6 books
1.
I was born in the ocean,
it was night
there was a light breeze
I know this is not true
because my mother can't swim,
but when I close my eyes
and click my heels
I see only gentle waves
draped in a midnight moon.
I don't know
what this means.
Or the kind of man
it makes me
All I know is that
when I'm at sea-level
everything makes sense
2.
To the girls who will
fall in love with me,
take note.
I will love you
violently,
absolutely
and without compromise.
today, tomorrow
and maybe the day after
What I mean is
the Star Trek laser gun
of my undying affection
is set to incinerate.
What I mean is
kiss me on the cheek
and I'll shine so bright
I'd roast a turkey at twenty paces.
What I mean is
I'm afraid my hands
are too big
to carry you safely
What I mean is
I don't know how to love at an even burn.
But some day I might just open a door
and be able to love you
everyday
every time
and everywhere.
But for now please understand
that when you are in front of me
I hear only the sweetest violin music
3.
The first girl I ever loved
was on the Disney Channel.
in the grey hours of morning
I'd lay there among yesterdays toys
waiting for her smile
her teeth jagged
on my CRT screen,
she flips her Technicolor hair
then rolls out
the anthropomorphised rodent messiah
that I had to worship
to prove my love to her
You see,
my seven-year old heart
was a sucker
for prepackaged escapism
in a sundress
so I accepted the Mouse
into my soul
and I preached his word
on the playground
M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E
I chanted,
a child soldier on a crusade,
Donald Duck water-bottle
held like a scimitar
I lead my school-yard congregation
in prime-time prayer
But then she started seeing her co-host
and I switched to the Cartoon Network,
You see
I learned what love was, Mickey.
It's a rat-faced lie we all tell.
And I'll never forget my first time.
4.
You asked me where I got this t-shirt
I took a trip outside of myself
and it was all I came back with
5.
When I was a little boy
I danced with God.
He told me stories
and gave me heroes to play with
but in my dance I spun away
and found the song of the universe
to be louder than the words on the page
The melody is old
and hard to hear
over the roaring thunder
but it begs us to remember
that somewhere,
something incredible
is waiting to be known
that we're all
waiting to be known
and for small things like us
the vastness is bearable
only through love.
6.
I am continually amazed
by the ongoing process of being human.
All of you amaze me,
you wonderful machines.
all cheekbones and elbows
and tangled balls of string
If these fingers were nimble enough
I'd rip myself apart
layer by layer
exposing the sacred chaos
and tiny infinities
that live inside you.
I'd do it every night.
Standing on rooftops and flagpoles
with a marching band and fireworks
screaming through a megaphone
putting all my gears and levers
on display
till my my eyes are steeped
in burning flowers
and the choking floodwaters
fall beneath my chest
Then I'd step back
and ask for your name.
"My name is Praveen," I'd say
"Take my hand. There's something I need to show you."